Monday, January 23, 2012

3-day down count


We sit silently, surrounded by hiking gear and high-end socks. She contentedly sips her Dasani water, face peaceful, blank. I slip my arm around her shoulder, and she slides close to me, feet hanging off the wooden bench. “I’m gonna miss you when I’m gone, Sister”

“I’m gonna miss you too.”

“Do you think you’ll stay in our room while I’m away?”

“Yeah.”

“Is there anything that you want to change?”

“You’re only gonna me gone for two months,” smiling eyes meet mine.

January to April—that seems like a good long while, I guess it’s not in the whole scheme of things. Come Thursday, I’ll be hauling a bloated suitcase onto a plane that’ll fly me across the pond to England, away from my Kansas home. Honestly, I was dreading the trip a week ago, but excitement’s welling up in me as the hours until departure slip by. I simply love adventure--it’s divine! The rawness of the unknown, the beauty of discovery, it’s just wonderful. I’m chomping at the bit for a change of scenery, and it’s time for an adventure. Oh, it’s HIGH time for an adventure! (When is it not?...)
I cannot wait to discover what the Lord has in store for these next few months. So much loving prayer has been poured over me regarding this trip, so much encouragement, and so much love. I believe this will be an experience that I’ll draw from for years to come.
Thank you dear friends and sweet family for the love and support you’ve offered me. As excited as I am to go, I’m already as excited to come back home to you all!
Lord willing, next time I write, I shall be across the sea!
Blessings to you all

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

they are dying!

Your plans are Sovereign, but I can’t comprehend them
Father, do not turn a deaf ear to my weeping!
See, your sheep are deceived
the people of this earth following a deceiver
he clothes himself with light, blinding the simple minded
Oh Father, destruction is their end!
How they wander blindly searching for hope, settling for simple answers they think will save them!
Oh Lord, why?
You have seen my nights of restless slumber
I cry out to you when the sun is high and when it sets
You burden me with sorrow
My prayers continue on for years, and I cannot see Your answers
Oh, Lord, whom I love, rescue Your beloved!
Oh how I love You, and how You frighten me.
I am terrified in Your presence.
Your sovereignty overwhelms me
I am afraid to swerve from Your course
Oh Lord, show me how fleeting is my life that I may not pass disillusioned
Fill me with the fire of Your word
Open my lips that I may boldly proclaim Your salvation
Earthly pleasures forsake me; I need You ever more!
I will die if I don’t hear Your voice.
If You were to become silent, I would hate my life
Oh, how I lose sight! How quickly I am lulled to sleep
I want to know the God I serve!
I want to know the nuances in Your voice; I need to know Your presence.
I want to know the penetration of Your gaze, and fall prostrate in the blinding light of Your presence.

Father, equip us to rescue Your sheep!

for the glory of Jesus Christ

All glory and honor be to God.



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