stink. i'm so human

Sifting through misconceptions.
Thought patterns subconsciously sew into a patchwork quilt.
The hourglass is flipped. The jackles are visiting today.
Just as ugly as the days before.
The scrap inside me and scratch old wounds raw.
Healer, I’m hurting.
My future lost its luster in the sequined dazzle of the marionette.
How foolish.
Forgive me;
take it if you wish.
I’m blundering in a fog,
Where did everyone go?
I call out.
Few answer.
But You beckon me just the same,
Even louder.
“Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
Daily I give You everything.
In swirly glooeyglompenness,
You are my foothold.

heart for the nations

"Because of thirst the infant's tongue sticks to the roof of its mouth; the children beg for bread, but no one gives it to them." Oh Lord, save Your children, for they are destitute, without father or mother, stripped of blessing and hope. Their future whispers only of death and pain from this they find no rest. Save Your people. Jehova Jireh, be quick to hear their plea. Prepare the hearts of Your Beloved to serve those in need. Quicken the spirits of us, Your disciples. May we be trained by the heart of God to feed the nations, to clothe the naked, to nurse the sick, to bind up the wounded, to father the fatherless, to care for the widow, and to give life to those lost in the prisons of darkness giving them hope by the power of Your Son. Prepare us. Strip me of selfishness, of the need of abundant food and air-conditioning. Comfort blinds our hearts. "Arise, cry out in the night...pour out your heart like water in the presence of the Lord. Lift up your hands to him for the lives of your children, who faint from hunger at the head of every street." Lord, Your heat is for Your lost sheep. May our hearts follow Yours in purity. We desire the day of Your return. Our hearts long to speed Your coming. Let us go to the nations by trust and faith and by Your perfect will. Send us out filled with Your Holy Spirit trusting You for our daily bread. Lord we've committed our lives to follow You. Use us, we're in love with You. Where You go, let us follow; we long to follow. Send us to the nations.